Today, I decided to be grateful. Not because it is a holiday. Because I am even though I don’t see it yet. I know I am truly grateful of meeting someone who showed me love this year. I felt it all and wanted the best for that person. I will always be grateful for him because he is the reason why I choose to live. Choose to love instead of hate, greed, and all that negative emotions I have inside.
So please be good to each other, be kind to each other despite who they are, and lastly just be nice.
Thank you for reading this post
And I hope many of you are enjoying your Thanksgiving! ❤
How dare you?! How can you just treat your own heart like that?? Your heart is precious like a diamond and yet you decided to find another rock and smash it into little bits. For goodness sake, know what you want and go after it instead of complaining about like a bitch! I know there’s something in you that you repressed so long. I think you forgot what it was. Come on. I know you know so pick yourself up like a soldier and keep fighting!
Something so refreshing
Of seeing your handwriting
Without a strain on your eye
Brings a voice
You once held
Now it’s out there
What took you so long?
You finally gave up on me. That’s what I wanted you do for me.
So I finally know that I lost you.
I always knew I don’t deserve something so beautiful.
Your kind of love is something different I thought. I guess I was wrong.
At least I now know I truly don’t need or want it.
Now I’ll fight my corner again till I finally give up on myself once more.
Now I’m curious of how I will die.
Do something! Anything! For goodness sake, why can’t do something that can help you and others at the same time? You can be pathetic but I know you do nothing because you are just scared. You’re scared of what will happen next to the point that you feel like you are going to do something that will hurt yourself really bad. Come on. You know that isn’t the answer. Do something productive. Make him proud!
So stop it! Stop feeling bad about yourself and fix your problem. It’s your problem so fix it. You know you have to whether you like it or not. So fix it. Fix it!
Oh God! I hope everything will go as planned. If not then I’m hella screwed. I need to remind myself that I deserve a fresh start and live the way I should and no one else’s. Sometimes I think I don’t trust myself enough to do this but I have to keep remind myself to do it for me. I never get a chance to help me when I’m too busy helping other people. I hope my friends would know how much I love them. They always motivated me but I never believed it. Now I need to motivate myself. Come on! I can do this! Yes I can. Yes I can. Yes I can!
Alright. Here we go!
Just remember to just breathe and everything will fall in place.
P.S. I just hope one day he will forgive me. Can’t help but wonder if he will be proud of me if I do this?
It’s okay. Just breathe. I know it is scary but you know you need this. Remember that you are doing this for you and no one else. So stop doubting yourself DAMN IT. You know you did everything you can for them and now you need to focus on you. Just be the better version of yourself and everything will be alright.