Life & Death

Everything feels so new and fresh

Yet my mind wants to collapse

Earning to live life

While feeling numb

Wanting to love

At the same time you want to disappear

Living

Yet dying on the inside

Alive but dead

Dead but alive

Depression is like …

Everyone with Depression have their own way of expressing what it feels like for them. And for me personally Depression is like a bad friend who tells you that you are a bad person who doesn’t deserve to be happy. It’s like a bully that acts like your friend. Basically, it’s my frenemy. I decided to deal with this so called friend because I didn’t want to be alone. Also, it’s the only friend I have that I don’t know how to let go. It’s a toxic, bad friend.

In the end, I treated it like it’s human that needed someone to talk to and I was that person. So I always listened and said that everything will be okay.

Hopefully, everything will work out. If not then pull yourself up and keep going no matter what.

Compromised Sanity

I feel as though

someone warped my mind into something else.

It’s like there is a parasite in my brain

that I’m trying to get it out but it wants to live there

and make me something else.

Guess what?

I want my mind back.

My mind is my mind, not yours.

Deep Slumber

The devil whispered to my ears
I hung onto each spoken syllables
Before I fall apart again
So it devour my mind once more

Next thing I know
I’m in deep sleep
Now it is ready to have some fun
It plays and breaks my things
And then cause more havoc
Whenever it’s awake