poet at heart who aligns with the wicked and the savior
You told me to decide so fine. I decide not to believe in anything anymore. I don’t believe in love, faith, hope, or God. Once you believe in something, you will get hurt. And I don’t like getting hurt. So it’s better to pretend everything is okay even though it’s not.
I’m a fighter
Fought my way
To live
To breathe
To stay
To love
To care
But …
I’m starting to get tired
Oh so tired
That I just want to give up
I thought you were my person
Someone I can talk to about anything at any time
Someone who looks beyond my flaws and see who I really am
Someone I show the best and worse of me
Someone who feels like home
Someone I can be with without shame
Someone who loves me for me
So where are you now??
Dear Me,
How dare you?! How can you just treat your own heart like that?? Your heart is precious like a diamond and yet you decided to find another rock and smash it into little bits. For goodness sake, know what you want and go after it instead of complaining about like a bitch! I know there’s something in you that you repressed so long. I think you forgot what it was. Come on. I know you know so pick yourself up like a soldier and keep fighting!
Kind regards,
You ❤
I wish you can understand
But you won’t
Everything I do
Just disappoints you
I knew I saw something in you
I wasn’t sure what it was
People kept saying it’s love
They kept admiring us
While being afraid of us
Then I thought
That I met God
“God is love,” they say
I think that is what it was
I saw the light
Shining so bright
To me
You are my religion
My God
I breathe in it’s fires
Just to condemn myself
Only when hope is lost
And nothing more
Yet the vision is hanging on
Like a thread
Close yet almost gone
As if the light wants to disappear
