Pain Addiction

I’m addicted to pain

The only thing I live for

So why not?

Why not cut my heart

In million pieces

To end everything

For good


Life Or Death

I’m either on the edge of life or death

even in between where I don’t feel anything.

I always thought this Universe is testing us.

Making us see something that wasn’t there in the first place. I always wonder what is beyond the stars.

Such curiosity made me realize

it is part of the adventures you can embark.

So traveling has always been an idea.

An illusion almost because I’m always in need of money and saving as much as I can.

Just Let Me Die

I’m either living or dying.

My mind won’t choose. I’m always fighting in my mind that I can’t win.

There’s always a battle and I try to fight it but … I’m so tired.

I just want to give up.

I need someone to push me to finally give up on life. So I won’t fight anymore.

Just Give Up … On Me

What took you so long?

You finally gave up on me. That’s what I wanted you do for me.

So I finally know that I lost you.

I always knew I don’t deserve something so beautiful.

Your kind of love is something different I thought. I guess I was wrong.

At least I now know I truly don’t need or want it.

Now I’ll fight my corner again till I finally give up on myself once more.


Now I’m curious of how I will die.

The Story Ends

I stood beside the fire
Just to embrace its warmth
One step closer
And the sensation intensify

My brain tells me to stay away
My mind tells me to take another step

To surrender completely